Ok, I've tried this blog thing a few times, trying to find something that fit, something that would make me feel comfortable sharing my voice. Let's hope the third time is the charm! You can tell from the title of this blog, I am a mid-life Mommy. I had my first (and so far only) child at 43 years and eight months. The reason my age is so detailed is that, as any one whose had a baby over 35 knows, they count every second you age!!! Every minute in their minds potentially pushes you closer to Armageddon and they are just doing the count down.
It's not that I wanted to be here so late in life, but I didn't get married until I was almost 39. I figured things would flow from there, but after years of trying, two attempts at artificial insemination, two attempts at InVitro and no luck, I was squarely into my 40s before I found a Naturopathic doctor who changed my diet, prayed with and for me and wham, I was pregnant in six months! So here I am, with a happy, healthy two year old.
Here I am ALSO, in mid-life! Life is funny like that! I don't know if the changes my body is going through are because of the baby or because I'm getting older. Sometimes I panic wondering if I'll be around to see my daughter grow up; other times I laugh at the fact that I'm doing things like wrangling my daughter to comb her hair and I'm thinking "but I'm damn near 50, how did I get into this mess?!" It's just been a fun and wild and thought-provoking journey.
With this blog spot I hope to explore all of those changes and feelings. I'm hoping I can be honest and open. I am hoping that fear won't stifle me; I am hoping you won't think I'm an idiot. I am hoping...
You are no idiot! thank you so much for sharing your experience! i, too am later in life, and think about the 'what-ifs' and the fear starts to take over. But you are clearly doing your thing and you are HAPPY and that is what counts :)
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